Machinery

I hover with my face just above his, I can’t trust myself to touch him in the moment because I want to crash into and through him with teeth and bone and blood and the hardness of clashing steel. And even though I am soft, really, all tender and smooth flesh that gives and bends, I am afraid that I will really hurt him.

I feel like I am snarling at him, breathing into his … Continue Reading

Loves: 17
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Post-meeting update

I want to write a lot in the calm after meeting bambi yesterday (calm because it is the morning of the next day, and he is still in bed (in the spare bedroom, to clarify…)), but my thoughts are all scattered. Good-scattered though, all snippets of lovely things that I am not able to grab a firm hold of just yet.

Randomly:

  • There is a really strong attraction between us, which was my biggest ‘if’
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Loves: 15
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Anticipation

I want to post something brimming with enthusiasm and excitement, but I am so very aware of how my last meeting turned out that I am hesitant to bring you along just in case there is disappointment coming.

On the other hand… if I must suffer, then SO MUST YOU, so here goes!!! *laugh*

Bambi arrives tomorrow!! I AM SO EXCITED!

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He is at the airport getting ready to board his plane as I … Continue Reading

Loves: 11
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Bambi Q&A

In my last post, I invited people to ask me questions about bambi… Thank you to everyone who did… fun!!

So here are all the secrets…

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Is Bambi the greatest?!?! <= Hmmm… bambi, is that you?!

He’s totally the greatest! Also, ask me again in 5 days… *bounce fidget*

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This Bambi fellow seems pretty fit and hot. He must be so awesome!! How are you handling the massive ego he must have?!Continue Reading

Loves: 15
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Curious about bambi? Ask me!

So bambi arrives in a week. A WEEK!!! So exciting!

I’ve had two questions about him on my Ask Me page today, and I do love questions (question hoar!), so I thought I’d bring it up front here, and invite you to ask about him/me/us in the comments.

If there are only a few questions, I will answer them here. If there are MORE than a few, I will create a new post for them. … Continue Reading

Loves: 9
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Present

I bought him a present for Christmas.

It arrived at his house after he left on his travels and getting it to him had been an issue.

He finally got it today.

He sent me nearly 20 photos of him opening it: He knows I like to see his face. They start off incredibly silly and the tenor of them changes as he opens the package, the box, the bag, and then when he puts … Continue Reading

Loves: 16
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Works for me

There is a thing he does that works for me, and interestingly, it is most evident when I mention something that is *not* working. Then he gets a little frustration with himself for not being/saying/doing what I want, and he reaches for it, wanting to understand what happened. He turns it over in his head and worries at it. His desire to unravel it and get it right is like a solid thing between us, … Continue Reading

Loves: 11
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