I hover with my face just above his, I can’t trust myself to touch him in the moment because I want to crash into and through him with teeth and bone and blood and the hardness of clashing steel. And even though I am soft, really, all tender and smooth flesh that gives and bends, I am afraid that I will really hurt him.
I feel like I am snarling at him, breathing into his open mouth, watching his tongue tentatively reach out to survey the damage already done to him. I’m not sure if I make any sound, but the animal noise is there in my throat and a thrumming is loud in my ears. I hear a whining engine noise in my head, creaky brakes trying to slow a huge machine that wants to barrel over the top of everything in its way, giant cogs forging ahead under load, weighty and unstoppable. I bare my teeth and try to quell the aggression until it’s manageable, under enough control that I can trust it.
He watches me, restrained, both flinching and wanting to reach for it, willing it to obliterate him. And if I wait long enough he will crane his neck to get to me, to invite me back in, and even as I nudge against him, I see him screw his eyes shut and try not to pull away when I shove myself into him again. It’s like he forgets, in those moments of reprieve, how relieved he was when I stopped.
But he hates it when I stop.
~grins~ awww beautiful passion pain, pleasure, need, fear, ache, and much more! As always I love your thoughts.
*smile* Thanks so much!
@ Miss Ferns:
So you’re still not using the gym regularly, then?
*puzzled look* This non sequitur confuses me!
One of the best kisses I ever got involved my girlfriend basically tackling me with her mouth. It took me maybe a couple of second to react and be able to kiss her back. Mind you, my hands were bound and I had used my safeword immediately before this, so I was already kind of reeling.
*smile* That sounds great!
I know, right?! All kinds of kisses are great, but violent kisses are best kisses.
So I take it things are going swimmingly with New boy? hehehe. Sounds like it!
*grin* We have a lot of things to figure out yet, but kissing is not one of them.
The kissing is just… just… well… Guh!!!
Wow. Well this made me smile! I don’t know if it was the words or the feelings conveyed but just… WOW!
*smile* I’m glad it made you smile… and yes, WOW!!
Gets my approval
Not that you you know need my approval or anything but you have it anyway cos I’m a soppy old romantic like that ;)
*smile* No, I don’t need it, but Coug-endorsed is totally a thing!
I shall add it to my signature then
Perfectly arsed and endorsed
“@ Miss Ferns:
“”So you’re still not using the gym regularly, then?”
“*puzzled look* This non sequitur confuses me!””
I meant that you clearly have excess energy that has *not* been used wholesomely, so instead are becoming yet more depraved. I am saddened by this, Miss Ferns, saddened I say.
Don’t be silly now…
I am strong, like ox… I can do both!
*flex pose* Raawwwrrrr!!!!
I don’t care if it sounds a bit shallow… but I do miss these types of posts from you. Always such vivid imagery. Just lovely.
*smile* Thank you so much. And no, not shallow at all: I really REALLY miss feeling this, and trying to get some approximation of it onto the page is a joy for me.
purses her lips and blows sensually on the mic to see if its fucking working now