Numbers game

For all the bleating all over the kinky sites on the internet about how male subs are a dime a dozen, they are everywhere, they are common as muck and outnumber dominant women about a billion to one, I have an observation, just one, a single one…

I looked into a bondage workshop that was happening in my local area last week. There was a public list of those who were ‘going’ and ‘maybe going’. … Continue Reading

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Sometimes, I suck

I’ve never pretended that I was perfect, that would fool no-one, but mostly, I make smart and considered decisions, I am thoughtful, I think about consequences for me and mine, and I try to handle myself and situations ‘for the best’ for all concerned.

I generally have good judgement and exercise it well.

Recently, I failed miserably at this and caused a lot of unnecessary pain and anger for a boy I care for very … Continue Reading

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Airport waiting

I’m at the airport, waiting with my father for a flight to come in.

There is a boy sitting across and a few seats to the right, facing me. I look at him, he looks back at me frankly. I have sunglasses on, I am not sure if my stare is obvious. There is no smile on either side.

He is kind of beautiful, lean, early 30s maybe, a clean attractive face, short hair, sideburns, … Continue Reading

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What does femdom porn look like?

Sometimes it looks like this:

It’s just not enough is it…? I know I know… so I also have this:

I can’t just leave it at that, of course… I have to TALK about it!

It’s not ‘stomach lurching, ooh must go masturbate’ porn, it’s more

– oh my, look at him…
– I love it when he tries to get up and gets jerked back by the chains…
– his face…
– the sound … Continue Reading

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Thoughts on casual play

I have a dilemma about casual play and it’s the reason I stopped doing it, haven’t done it for so very long, and don’t do it as a rule.

In play, I need and *want* to create the bubble, you know, ‘the bubble’. That intimate, hot and lovely space that exists between me and him, that place that I describe, well, all the time. For me, play is about creating impossible intimacy, about opening him … Continue Reading

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Great expectations

I know full well that people’s expectations differ, of course I know that! But I have recently seen a discussion on a BDSM forum that makes me wonder how something that is a fundamental expectation in my relationships, so fundamental that I would not think I would have to stress it, is actually no big deal to others.

Here’s all of the pertinent information from the original post from a submissive:

I was supposed to

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Late night, can’t sleep

Random, unfiltered thoughts… tick tick tick tick…

Things are possible even if you wish they weren’t, or especially then.

She asked for $5 that I owe her… who asks for $5? Especially when she is far away, and it has to be given to another so that the other can put into her bank account… who does that?

My bed squeaks, lucky I am not having sex on it, I masturbate quietly, with terrible images … Continue Reading

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