If you are interested in some glimpses of how I saw my First in the time we were together, both of the posts below are about him.
I wrote a blog at the time (before blogs were a thing, hand coded in HTML), and kept a journal: both of these writings were based on descriptions I wrote back then, so they are true to my perspective at the time. There might be some others about him floating around, but these came quickly and easily to mind as pivotal moments with him.
They are sweet, hot, and intimate, which was how I experienced our relationship. Reconciling the memories I have with the experience he had is like trying to fit together two pieces from different puzzles.