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Communication and distance
I’m good at remote communication. Probably better than in-person. I can write thoughtful, funny, intimate emails. I adore someone who does the same, who fires me up, who is able to bring something to our exchanges that makes me excited and fascinated, that feeds me. That thing where I can’t hit reply fast enough: I need that.
I’m also good at doing long distance. I seem to do it a lot. Not because it’s a … Continue Reading
5 days with the cougarling
The rising sun was still low over the horizon, a warm morning, the promise of a bright day. An early swim and play in the surf. I leapt at him full force, trying to take him down in the churning water. He held me lightly, amused. Could easily lift me overhead. Playful silliness.
I left the water first, drying myself on the beach. I watched him stride out of the surf towards me, the towel … Continue Reading
Travelling
I know a lot of you are waiting for an update on the cougarling’s visit, and it’s coming.
I blame him for the lack of posting: He ended up staying until pretty much 3 hours before I had to pack up and head off on the first leg of a trip overseas, and I will have NO time to myself for another couple of weeks.
So you will just have to wait.
I know: … Continue Reading
Setting expectations
All going to plan, the cougarling will arrive here on Saturday afternoon after a million hours of driving. He will stay for a few days (not with me: that’s waaay ‘too much too soon’). How long exactly depends on how it goes.
I sent him an outline of my expectations:
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What I expect from the visit is that we will date like normal people dating, though obviously we will be spending far more time … Continue Reading
The cougarling
I rarely talk about potentials here for a bunch of complicated reasons.
Firstly because they usually know about my blog and talking about my feelings while exploring something new is confusing and destructive. If I write about it honestly, it’s more information than I am ready to share with them. Since these things are always tenuous and volatile, my thoughts are often all over the place, and blurting them out when they are fleeting and … Continue Reading
That’s that
I posted some impressions of our kissing date.
They are truth, those small snippets of heat and connection. Some sweet emails followed, his first immediately after our kissing date full of wonder and awe that matched mine.
But despite the flashes of intensity we shared, overall something wasn’t firing with us.
He is a smart, attractive man who was showing me lovely little glimpses of potential goodness both as a person and as a … Continue Reading