I did a week of posts, as planned (yay!) to try and kick-start my brain, so I thought I’d do a quick review of where my head is at.
It wasn’t as hard as I thought it would be.
Writing about ‘whatever random thing was on my mind’ took the pressure off me to write about ‘something’, which was making me over-think and spin in my own head when my brain really wasn’t in the space for processing that. The daily writing didn’t feel like a chore (phew), and I gave myself a pass to just post ‘it’, whatever ‘it’ was, which was rather freeing.
I like some of the random posts that came out of it, and some of them got quite a bit of thoughtful feedback from you lovely folks, which I really enjoy (thank you!). I might do a bit more of that kind of ‘whatever is on my mind’ posting without filtering so much.
I’ve also been doing some ‘brain training’ games online to try and stimulate whatever is stalled in my head, and I’ve started taking brahmi again to see if that helps coalesce my thoughts.
Oddly for me, I’m not sleeping well, and my orgasms are being weird with me. Re the former, I used to have a lot of trouble sleeping when I was stressed because I couldn’t turn my brain off when I went to bed, and I seem to be there again (not with the stress, just with the tic-tic that might be my brain trying to do what I am asking of it). By the latter, I mean that I am able to come, but it feels like an anti-climax. It’s more like my body goes into spasm and is done rather than all those wonderful waves of pleasure and goodness. I’m wondering if both of those are due to the brahmi because nothing else has physically changed.
I guess I should add here that from the above, I am aware that I might be making this seem like a Really. Big. Problem *smile*. It’s really not, so don’t worry.
Rest assured that I am not walking around in the world like some kind of mindless zombie no longer able to function normally or string a sentence together. I just know that my synapses have not been firing like they normally do. Instead of going ‘snap-snap-snap’, they have felt like they were sluggishly going ‘eh? wha?!’.
And of course, if I see a problem, I want to fix it.
I think I’m getting there.