I watch him hurting and I can’t fix it.
Sometimes I make it worse with a thoughtless comment or a passing throwaway that cuts him, I don’t even realise I have pierced his skin until I see the blood seeping quietly from the wound, until I see him backing slowly away from me. He retires to a corner to lick it, silently curled up into himself, I imagine an accusatory look being thrown my way … Continue Reading
Black suede with patent leather features and plus… zips! Why are completely useless zips sexy? I don’t know, they just are. You can’t see in the photo, but they also have a patent leather ribboned piece running up the back seam… *happy sigh*
I mentioned this dilemma a little while ago, so… :
Hello InterestingManWhoMightNeedaCuteNickIfThisGoesAnywhere,
[…stuff…]
I am not sure how much you have read of my blog so far, but I want you to stop reading it. I think the blog contains TMI for someone I am getting to know. I assume that request is not too difficult?
[…more stuff…]
Ferns
… Continue ReadingSometimes my passion wanes, and it is not you and it is not me, it just is.
Sometimes you feel so close to me, like you are inside me, like you are part of me and it makes me feel kind of sick, a tightness in my chest and a fullness in my throat, and I love that.
Sometimes I am happy just to hear you tell me about your day and we exchange dull … Continue Reading
This is again one where you MUST see what landed in my inbox, because… well, I like to share… I am good to you like that…
i pooed in my diaper and so now i have to wear my dirty mess and sit in it like the pathetic piece of shit that i am.
Me, killing myself laughing and passing it on to all my friends: OMG!! Best. Email. EVER!!! Oh … Continue Reading
I have expectations of people I interact with, even if it’s just a friendly exchange. Those expectations vary depending on what my relationship is with them. This makes perfect sense, of course. My expectations of my boss, work colleagues, employees, of shop assistants, family members, casual acquaintances, friends etc are all slightly different.
My expectations of men, and particularly submissive men, tend towards something that could easily fall into a D/s dynamic, even if they … Continue Reading
Ending relationships is difficult and painful and horrible.
With D/s relationships, in addition to the ‘normal’ stuff, there are often questions that sit on top of the ‘relationship is over’ emotional turmoil that you are going through.
It goes without saying that everyone is different, there are no ‘rules’, and often, even if you *think* you would do one thing, when you are in the midst of it all, the approach that you thought you … Continue Reading