Lost!


I have lost my favourite flogger (can you believe it?!). I can only think that I must have left it in the hotel where I last used it but they haven’t seen it… I am really quite upset about it.

I am not a toy whore… despite my buying frenzies, a toy is just a toy, I don’t care about them, but BUT… BUT… this one, this one is the only one that has ever felt like it was part of me. I have had it forever, its strands are wide, and worn-in, softish, I can either sting or thud with it. It is nearly a metre long and I *know* it, just like I know my own hand, it is like an extension of me, it is my primary, my ‘go to’ toy, my only must have. It has perfect length, great weight, lovely feel… I know exactly how to strike with it to get what I want – soft, gentle, tender, kissing caresses to sharp, heavy, thudding, evil strikes, I can do a huge satisfying overarm swing with it and know exactly how and where it will hit, I can hold it short and do quick sharp spinney smacks, I can flick it up between his legs to make him feel good, or bad… all that… I am really upset about it, and I am surprised at my upset.

And I realised after wrote all of the above that I used present tense… to correct: it WAS all those things for me. My connection with it seems silly, even to me, but perhaps it symbolises my early exploration of this kind of play, it wasn’t my first toy, but it was one of the very early ones and by far my favourite.

I don’t even know exactly how long it was to start looking for a replacement that is, at least, the same length… *le sigh*

Have you ever had such a connection to one of your toys, are any of them fundamental? Or are they just toys?

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11 comments

  1. “I can only think that I must have left it in the hotel where I last used it but they haven't seen it…”

    You actually called the hotel and asked if they had seen it? Lol

  2. I suggest you contact the hotel manager and promise him a good beating if he returns your flogger to you. Provide a good, detailed description of it, and a date and time you'll be by to collect it.

    You're practically guaranteed to get your favorite flogger back or an exact facsimile. Motivation.

  3. I truly sympathize … I lost my favorite flogger a couple of years back when we scened in a kayak and got a bit energetic and rolled it … sadly the camera and Best Ever Flogger vanished into 6 feet of water. We were both laughing so hard we couldn't get back into the kayak!

  4. Brids: “You actually called the hotel and asked if they had seen it?”

    Yes, yes I did… I truly wish that they had found it and then asked me for specific identifying features (you know, to distinguish it from all the others!).

    Ferns

  5. sera: “Yes, definitely a connection to toys–most of which I just lost in a breakup.”

    I'm glad I am not the only one! But, oh gosh, you win! That's *much* worse than just losing something because I am careless! That sucks!

    “I keep wanting to find ones JUST LIKE them.”

    Yes! This. But I want one that is just like it in a worn and used and soft and familiar way… blergh!

    Ferns

  6. Yardbird: “I suggest you contact the hotel manager and promise him a good beating if he returns your flogger to you.”

    You are right (and brilliant!)! What was I thinking?! I shall put on my stern voice and ring them straight back!

    Ferns

  7. Mistress160: “I lost my favorite flogger a couple of years back when we scened in a kayak and got a bit energetic and rolled it … “

    Give me a moment while I picture that in my head…

    Yeeeaaahhh…nup… can't do it!

    I should write a post asking 'most interesting place you have played'… I believe this would be right up there!

    And thank you for the sympathies over the flogger loss.. I just wish now that I had a decent story to go with it!

    Ferns

  8. “Yes, yes I did… I truly wish that they had found it and then asked me for specific identifying features (you know, to distinguish it from all the others!).”

    I can understand doing that for a camera or your favorite teddy bear or a pair of sunglasses but I just can't imagine asking if they'd seen my favorite flogger around…

    Me: “Hi, I stayed at your hotel about 3 days ago and I left a metre long leather flogger at your hotel, you haven't see it around have you?”

    Them: “A What?”

    Me: “You know, a flogger! For beating people with!?”

    Yeah…No…I would have just bought a new one.

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