I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again and again… men are beautiful.
I think I probably leave readers with the impression that ‘beautiful’ to me means ‘perfect’. That I have some impossible standard.
It doesn’t and I don’t. Truly.
What I think is objectively beautiful is one thing. I DO have a body ‘type’ that appeals to me very much, and it is rather stereotypical – V-shaped, lean, sinewy muscle, not too big, adonis belt, six pack… oh my. I think of men’s bodies as pretty things to be admired, and when I see one that looks good to me, I am sometimes stunned into a fugue state where I just can’t look away.
What I think is beautiful in the man I want, though, the one who has my attention, the who I hope to see naked, the one who looks at me with trust and sweetness, well, that kind of beauty is painted with a much broader brush. When he is in my sights, when I am emotionally invested, when I *like* him, his beauty becomes overwhelming to me. The stereotypical ‘type’ is irrelevant then. I can be transfixed by the hollow at his collarbone, the strength in his fingers, that look in his eyes, the way his tongue laps at his lips, the curve of his arse. Everything changes for me when he has my attention.
‘Beautiful’ is subjective. When I say that a man is beautiful, I mean just that: that I am glorying in the whole of him and the parts of him that appeal to me, that hit me just right, that make my head spin, make me swoony-weak.
When I tell a boy “You are beautiful”, it means “I can’t look away”, it means “I can’t believe how lucky I am that you are here with me”, it means “Oh my god, your prettiness hurts my heart”, it means “I want to tear you to pieces”, it means “Look at me just like that, don’t stop”, it means “I can hardly breathe”, it means “Fuck… just… fuck… you are So. Fucking. Beautiful!”
And just in case you’ve forgotten why I get like that with submissive men specifically, let me remind you with this (original and backstory here: Submissive men: A celebration of beauty):
Warning: This video may be really slow to load for some people. It’s worth the wait, I promise.